I've felt like blogging for a few days about some thoughts that I just have rolling around in my head, but I've found it hard to put into words.
I've finally gotten to a point where I am starting to get comfortable with myself. Comfortable with my little quirks and oddities, some of which people find annoying, but I'm referring to them as charming in the future.
Weight loss is hard. As someone who has always struggled with my weight, its never been that hard to lose it when push comes to shove. I just eat salads for a few weeks and voila, there goes 7 pounds. Not this time, I'm afraid.
The last time I wrote I'd finally hit 170 which for my frame is not good. This kicked me into action and I did the salad thing and got to 163. At that point I knew I needed to do more than just diet. I needed to actually change a few things about my habits to keep me from repeating this pattern. I'm almost 27, I want to do a lot of things, hike, travel, be adventurous, and I cannot do this if I am carrying around extra weight.
So at that point I started incorporating healthier meals into my routine. I'd snack on celery instead of a candy bar, I tried a fiber cleanse (which I sucked at, lets be honest). I'd limit my sweets and eating out quite a lot, but I knew I couldn't rule it out completely or I'd never do it, I love food too much. I started yoga, and after all of those changes I did start feeling better.
Only the scale stayed at 163. For about a month. Even with the changes nothing was happening.
Then I started running. I don't know if it was that or the days I did the cleanse or what but all of a sudden there went four pounds (though I'm still not noticing as drastic of a change in how my wardrobe fits, thanks muscle gain). I was elated and very motivated with that.
The hard part for me is keeping up with it. I tend to stay motivated for a while and then without fail, laziness hits. This time it has to be different. This has to be about more than losing weight, it has to be about changing my lifestyle for the better.
Thanks for reading this and those who have offered kind words during my journey. It really does help.
Jord.
I am a lot like you in that I start out of the gate like the winning horse, only to poop out after the first turn. I have decided that after this kidlet is born, I am going to concentrate on excercise until I am done breastfeeding (dieting and breastfeeding don't go well together) and then make small, manageable changes in my diet at that point and hope that I can get to a weight that I am happy with. Sticking with the excercise will be the hard one for me. I always find a way out of it. Good luck girlie! I am rooting for you! :)
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