sunday thought bubbles

I had a bit of a meltdown today. Nothing crazy, just got really cry-y and snotty and emo and annoyed with everything (Moz would not get out of my way). I just needed to get it out and feel a little sorry for myself and then it was over. And now I feel better, I had a lot of tea and some ice cream and watched Across The Universe and got a little zen. Sometimes that's all you need to feel better.

I have a lot of goals for myself in 2013. I feel like I've grown into my own quite a bit this year. I stand up for what I think is write instead of just going with the group. I'm less afraid of what I look like to others or what I wear. I basically look like a homeless Olsen twin on the weekends and I really don't mind (hello I love them, it's no secret). There are some things I still want to reach: starting my own business, writing SOMETHING that catches fire even if it's just to one person that thinks it's amazing. Gosh, Jordan, just finish the novel already.

I may or may not be high on Echinacea right now.

I went to an "essential oils" party on Saturday afternoon and the entire time I couldn't help but wonder "What Would Maria De Luca* Do?" She is one of my many spirit animals/patronuses. The others being Mary-Kate Olsen**, Lorelai Gilmore***, Carrie Bradshaw/Miranda Hobbs****, and of course, Dorothy Zbornak*****. All of those women are the best them's they can be, Maria included, and where Dorothy was my first spirit animal, MDL was a close second.

Anyway the point of that was, Maria wasn't afraid to try new things like rubbing oil on her temples to take away a headache. I want to be like that. I want to believe in something crazy like that even if it makes no sense to anyone else and not be afraid that they're going to make fun of me for it. I just need to stop caring.

*Maria De Luca is from my favorite show as a tween Roswell. I've posted a lot about it and think everyone should watch it because it's totally brilliant.

**Mary-Kate Olsen, you know who she is, but she's a good spirit animal because she is a total badass who runs a business, doesn't give a crap about anything besides being who she wants to be. And she doesn't get messed up in things like Facebook.

***Lorelai went to business school, runs an Inn and has a smartypants daughter. She is a supergal.

****Okay so I can never decide if I like Miranda or Carrie more. Everyone likes Carrie, and I like Carrie and sometimes I want her apartment or her closet and her luck with writing, but other than that I'm definitely more of a Miranda. I'm strong, independent, kind of awkwardly attractive and I love that about her.

*****Dorothy Zbornak is the best lady in the world and if you are unfamiliar I feel that you should google her right now and read up on some of her wit. It would also help to google Bea Arthur while you're at it.