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I want to thank everyone for the kind comments, emails, etc., I received yesterday on my guest post on Jess's blog. It was really nervewracking to put that out there even though there wasn't really anything negative to say, it still worried me what people would think (something I truly need to not worry about). I was very happy with the feedback.

I'm hitting kind of a creative road block and it's really getting to me for some reason. I want to write, that's all I've ever wanted to do yet I find it hard to want to share what I've written because of that fear. How will I ever be a writer if I can't get over that? It isn't that I can't take criticism, I'm actually fine with that, it's just the initial reaction that worries me. What if this doesn't make sense, what if it isn't even good? I have those thoughts in my head constantly. I'm not even doing it to become the next big author, I actually coudn't care less if I recieve a multi-million dollar book deal (though I wouldn't turn it down), I just want to produce something I can be proud of and that someone finds interesting besides myself. I just feel like I'll never get there if I keep holding myself back.

As I was walking out of the day job yesterday it also hit me, there are other ways to be creative. That's why I've started this blog, not only do I want to write frequently but I want to keep anything here that inspires me, be it an outfit, a painting or another blog. I want to look at pretty things because that's what I like doing. I just wish I was better at it.

Ah, that felt good. Who knows, maybe that'll inspire something?