life redesign

I did yet another blog redesign. Sometimes I feel like I need a life redesign. No, that sounds bad. I just need an attitude adjustment. Its truly up to me to be happy, I can't rely on anyone else. I can choose to be happy in a situation or miserable in a situation. Now why would I choose to be miserable? Oh yes, because I am Jordan, the girl formally known as emo (hi Jordan). So, now I have a decision to make. If life dealt me a crappy day then I have to figure out a way, by myself, to turn it around. If I wait for someone else to do it for me than I'm going to be waiting all day, and that's just unacceptable.

In other news...

I had a wonderful day, today. Zack did his radio shindig and was absolutely fantastic (I'll post the audio soon), I had a relatively stress-free day at work, I got several gals there addicted to Pinterest (which will probably get blocked now thanks to me, sorry) and I got a lot of great writing ideas.

I've been working on a book of some form for a while now and I think, after too much deliberation, that I've found a groove. Now, it's just a matter of pressing that groove to paper and hopefully forming sentences that make sense to someone other than myself, and my dogs. I don't know, I've always wanted to write and this blog is the closest I've come to getting anything out there. I've been much more diligent about writing, I am going to try and post at least a few times daily (other than a writing outlet its good to chronicle life and things I find and love, go figure).

Another thing I learned just now, diligent only has one "l". Good job, writer.

I've been pretty subtle on here, though some of you have caught on...we've been talking about a little Shutt. That makes me the happiest girl alive and also the most terrified. I used to be so indifferent about babies and then after getting married and growing up I realize it is something I seriously want to do, be it through pregnancy or adoption, which I believe we will do in the future. However it happens I would love to bring a little one into this home to share our lives.

Zack will be the coolest dad. Tonight we were watching Dexter and, without saying too much, there was a scene where Dexter was worrying about his son, Harrison, by googling different tragedies that could happen at just a minor procedure at the doctors office. That's Zack right there, he'll constantly worry if the kid licks a rock, where myself on the other hand will probably pick their binkie up off of the ground and lick it before sticking it back into their mouth. It helps their immune system!

I've got a lot to say tonight it seems. All this change has given me a lot to think about. I'm hardly complaining, it all makes me very excited, but change is always something to be nervous about. Having a baby will change lives, and change our relationship and we have to be willing to accommodate those changes. We're going to be scared, it won't be easy but I believe that it will be worth it. There is just so much to think about: work, childcare, feeding, birth situation, it is all so endless! Now I need a glass of wine so I can feel like a kid again, just for a second. Oh, and I'll leave you with this song. I am so not a summer fan but this song is one of the reasons summer is amazing and now that I believe it's officially gone I will bid ye summer faretheewell.